We officially moved to east LA in April! It is so nice that we finally settled in since for the past 6 months before that I was driving back and forth non-stop from San Diego to LA every week . My body was so exhausted from moving, I literally just stayed home on my couch for weeks. I didn't film many new videos, and I took a much needed break from social media. I had some down time to allow my brain to chill out and deactivate for a little while. I stopped focusing on my career plans, didn't go to any acting classes or casting workshops for a month, and it felt great just living life with my family!
We live in an area where all the Asians congregate, so there are plenty of Chinese, Korean, Japanese restaurants and cafes to choose from! All within ten minutes driving distance! The not so exciting side to living in this area is that all the Chinese people assumes I speak Mandarin, which I wish, so it gets pretty annoying when they give me this dirty look like "What!? You don't speak Chinese?!" I don't even want to explain myself by saying, "I speak Cantonese. I'm from Hong Kong." I just want to tell them "This is America, I speak English." Secretly, I wish I spoke fluent Mandarin. I can sing in Mandarin though.
The flip side is that I often get asked "where are you from?" by well meaning, curious White people who are trying to make small talk. The last time someone asked me that question at a Vegas tradeshow I replied, "Here." He persisted to ask me again, "Really? Where are you really from?" I replied, "Here." Then he stopped for a moment, started talking about something else with my friend, and then asked me again!! It's so annoying. All my Asian friends have experienced this. ALL OF THEM. For real. Attention well meaning, curious White people: PLEASE STOP ASKING ME THAT QUESTION. I know you don't mean any harm by it, but perhaps we can have a conversation about a nice restaurant or a cool music video. Sorry you won't get to use the only two Mandarin words you know like, "NEE HAW!" ("hello" in mandarin) on me. I already feel like I'm always the foreigner.
Sometimes "loving your life" is hard. We are encouraged to do more, want more, strive harder and dream bigger, but is all this focus in the future really making us happy?
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Love Yourself Champ, Transformer on Screen & Stage, Mommy of Sky, Asians in Media Activist, Producer.