Sometimes "loving your life" is hard. We are encouraged to do more, want more, strive harder and dream bigger, but is all this focus in the future really making us happy?
Lately I have been wondering if my wanting to live a better life and pursue my big dreams are interfering with my daily level of happiness. I think it's good to have dreams and take actions towards them but I don't want my happiness to be depended on "making it." I want to be happy NOW.
I want to LOVE MY LIFE NOW! Just as it is with the good, the disappointments and the stress. I don't want to miss a moment with my son and partner because I get too focused on pursuing my dreams. How do we strike a balance? I create lists in my head to remind myself how blessed I am and awesome my life is.
REASONS I ❤️MY LIFE:
1. I have a roof over my head.
2. I have three meals, snack and all the water I wanna drink.
3. I have a family who loves me.
4. I have God in my life.
5. I get to watch some good TV and films on a weekly basis.
6. My mom, step dad and brothers are healthy.
7. I have quality women friends.
8. I am healthy.
8. I get to do what I love in a pretty consistent basis.
9. I get to be with my adorable son all the time.
10. I have a partner who loves me and I love him.
And this is a short list, if I really sit and ponder how my life has turned out, there are so many things I'm grateful for.
Being a mommy really makes me become more aware of how time flies by. It felt like I was just without child, then pregnant, then gave birth to my son and now he's almost 2!! It feels like all this happened in a blink of an eye.
I'm learning to just be content with my life the way it is now. I'm savoring every moment with my family and when I get to go meet some new people and do what I love for 3 minutes in the room, I take over the space. I own that time. It's my time and when it's done, I feel good not because they praise or approve of me, but because I went in there and gave it my all every time. I'm content with that. I'm grateful God is giving me so many opportunities to shine my light in those rooms.
I think when you love your life, your energy shifts and people can feel that love and peace around you. Life becomes effortless and you just LIVE IN THE FLOW.
Here's my prayer for all of you reading this:
"May God remind you everyday how awesome and amazing your life is, and that through every trial and tribulation, you grow stronger, wiser and more confident in abounding peace and love."
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Love Yourself Champ, Transformer on Screen & Stage, Mommy of Sky, Asians in Media Activist, Producer.